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My current life in 90 questions

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1. What was the highlight of your week?
going out last night
2. Whose car were you in last?
shannon's
3. When is the next time you will kiss someone?
longer than I want it to be
4. What color shirt are you wearing?
green
5. How long is your hair?
around 8.5 inches
6. Are you good looking?
lol i'm no miss virginia
7. Last movie you watched?
superbad
9. Last thing you ate?
sushi
10. Last thing you drank?
water
11. When was the last time you had your heart broken?
couple of years ago
12. Who came over last?
shannon
13. Are you happy right now?
mostly
14. What did you say last?
bye
15. Where is your phone?
next to me
16. What color are your eyes?
brown
17. Are you left-handed?
yes
18. Spell your name without vowels:
brnn
19. Do you have any pets?
no
20. Favorite Vacation?
will probably be the cruise during spring break
22. What are you listening to?
drake
23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
a car
24. What is your favorite scent?
fresh cookies out the oven
25. Who makes you happiest?
myself, happiness comes from the inside
26. What were you doing at midnight last night?
at the club with friends
27. When is your birthday?
august 17
28. Who has the same phone as you?
haven't seen anyone yet
29. Last time you went swimming in a pool?
last semester
30. Do you read your horoscope?
not usually
31. Where was the last place you bought something?
mr. roboto's
32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
proud
33. Do you bite your nails?
once in a while
34. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
not much
35. Do you have any expensive jewelery?
not much
36. Myspace or facebook?
facebook
37. How fast have you driven a car?
around 80 maybe
38. Have you ever smoked?
no
39. What was or is your favorite subject in school?
marketing
40. Do you have Verizon?
no, t-mobile
41. What type of boy or girl do you usually fall for?
its a different type every time
44. Do you like to sing at all?
when i'm alone
46. Where does most of your family live?
lakeland, fl
47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
siblings
48. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
not at all
49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
turn of the alarm
50. Do you drink?
yes
51. Know any other languages?
a little spanish
52. Ever write a coded message?
probably
53. Have you ever been IN a wedding?
no, not even when both my parents remarried
54. Do you have any children?
no
55. Did you take a nap today?
no
56. Who has the same birthday as you?
disraeli, sandy, laura and some more people
57. Ever met anyone famous before?
evander holyfield
58. Do you want to be famous one day?
depends what for
60. Are you multitasking right now?
somewhat
61. Do you like Britany Spears?
kind of indifferent
63. Last place you drove your car?
don't have a car
64. Ever been out of the country?
canada
65. Where were you born?
bartow
66. Could you handle being in the military?
probably not
67. What is your average cell phone bill?
just changed my plan so we'll see
68. Who are you thinking about right now?
no one
69. When was the last time you laughed REALLY hard?
about 2 hours ago
70. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
around 12
71. Are your toes always painted?
no
72. How many piercings do you have?
2
73. What are you doing today?
had some meetings and went to the gym
74. Have you ever been gambling?
yes
75. When is the last time you updated your page?
a while ago
76. Do you like rollercoasters?
yes
77. Have you ever been to disneyland or world?
yes
78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
naruto
79. Last thing you cooked?
chicken
80. How's the weather?
ok
81. Do you e-mail?
yes
82. What's the stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone?
dropped it in water
83. Last time you were sick?
now
84. What states have you lived in?
2
85. Do you wish you could move?
no
86. Do you take all the QuizPox.com quizzes?
no
87. What is your dream car?
a crossover suv
88. Have you ever wanted someone you cant have?
yes
89. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be?
where I am now
90. Are you happy with your life?
for the most part

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History of My Hair

Since I started this blog in '05, well since I was born in '87, my hair has gone through many changes. Of course I was born natural and like most African American young girls, I received a perm at a young age. I never understood what perms really were or what they did until a few years ago. As embarrassing as it sounds, I actually thought my hair grew straight and new growth was just not as straight. My mother didn’t talk to me much about hair during my childhood. I remember my favorite style in elementary school was individual braids covered in multi-colored beads *nostalgia break* I liked to shake my head and hear the beads make noise. When I got to middle school, I started getting braids with extensions, I liked those too. I could go swimming without having to worry about my hair. In high school, my hair regimen consisted of several bottles of pink lotion and jars of hair grease. I only washed and conditioned my hair after I took it out of braids. I didn’t have a flat iron so whenever I washed it I thought I was doing something wrong because it would always result in a poufy unwanted look. I got a perm every month, wore it straight for as long as I could, then wear it in a pony tail until my next perm. Around my sophomore year my hair was the longest it’s been in my life so far, perhaps about 9.5 inches. Long as it was, I still fell into the weave trap twice for prom and graduation. Each time it took out a lot of hair because my stylist did not properly put the hair in and glued it instead of sewed it in. I was completely ignorant about weave; I just saw everyone else doing it.

When I started college in August 05, I guess my hair was about 7 inches. I struggled to find a new stylist for a while until I started getting perms regularly at a nearby salon. However before I found them, in December I went to this place close to campus. It was nice (and expensive) but they cut my hair to my ears because it “needed a trim”. The stylist educated me a little about hair. That was the first time in my life I couldn’t put my hair in a ponytail. It really sucked. I got a CHI flat iron and learned how to straighten myself and wash it every week. My regular place had a deal in which you pay a monthly fee and you get a perm once a month and they wash it for you every week. That was good for me since I was just beginning to learn how to take care of my hair anyway. With time, it grew back, even with the frequent trims I was getting. My first roommate was natural, but I never considered it until I started doing research for myself in late 2007. My hair was breaking off bad, and I couldn’t figure out why. I was too busy with school and my extra circular activities to wait in the salon all day for a perm, much less go every week for that wash. Soon I stopped going altogether. I can’t recall exactly when my last perm was but I went to another salon around March 2008 and the stylist wouldn’t give me a perm because my hair was so damaged or something like that because of the perms. I then got a consultation at a natural hair salon and decided to go natural. To transition, I wore individual braids for about a year starting May '08 to April '09. On August 20, '08, all of my relaxed hair was cut off right before I got some more braids. I enjoyed the ease of styling but took proper care of the braids. I did a LOT of research during that time to learn about natural hair and how to take care of it. When I took those braids out in Dec. my hair was about 4 inches long.

Today, I have 8 inches of natural hair. You can't tell though because it shrinks so much. My goal is to have 10 inches by the time I graduate in summer '10. This was my first semester wearing my natural hair , I wasn’t sure if I would have the time to properly take care of it and style it. I wear mostly in a puff; I can’t wait until the semester ends so I can have time to experiment with different styles during the break. I can't say I won't ever relax again, but I have educated myself about hair to understand the advantages, challenges, and proper care for being natural and relaxed.

Quotes of the Day

"What is love?"
"The total absence of fear," said the Master.
"What is it we fear?"
"Love," said the Master.
A n t h o n y D e M e l l o

Champions aren't made in gyms.
Champions are made
From something they have deep inside them:
A desire, a dream, a vision.
They have to have last-minute stamina,
They have to be a little faster,
They have to have the skill and the will.
But the will must be stronger than the skill."
M u h a m m a d A l i

I don't get why...

Alumni of my school and other people keep telling me to stay in college as long as I can. I am so stressed out right now it seems like graduation is my only hope and source of motivation. I understand that the “real world” is a challenge and the economy is making it that much harder to find a job, but the costs (both financial and mental) of college are too much to bear sometimes.

My life now includes several graduate courses and my graduate assistanceship. I also have to have an executive position in one of the student run companies in my business school and I am on the executive board of my school’s chapter of the oldest and largest professional business fraternity in the United States, Alpha Kappa Psi. I literally have 30 hour days sometimes. On top of that I have bills to pay including rent, tuition, utilities, and my cell phone bill. I have been paying all these bills (mostly on my own) since I got to college in 2005.

Once I get a full-time job, that’s all I will have to worry about and focus on. The fixed income from it would also take away so much anxiety. I am always worrying if I will have enough money to last until I graduate. My school’s financial aid office is not that efficient either, a scholarship I received over the summer still has not been disbursed so my tuition has not been paid yet. If I do not receive it soon, I’m not sure what will happen.

I did have other scholarships from my school during my undergraduate years, but I still had to budget that money to get by. Now that I am a graduate student, my scholarships do not switch over, but I’ve had paid internships during the summers that help, but my expenses are year round, not just during the summer when I am working.

To be honest, I’m tired of feeling so poor. I know so many students younger than me with nicer wardrobes, cars, and can go on trips during spring break like cruises. It must be nice to have parents that can afford those things or have the will to, but I’m not as fortunate. I’ve never been anywhere for spring break distinctly for pleasure and I still wear my shoes that I got for prom during high school when I go out. I don’t want a lot; I’m just tired of struggling. I don’t have expensive tastes or even prefer brand labels; I’m perfectly happy shopping at store like Payless which would let me save so I can build wealth.

I also don’t want my life to revolve around my bills. That’s the reason I’m taking 17 graduate credit hours right now (with full time being only 12), the main reason for my stress. I’m trying to graduate before my lease ends in August 2010 so I won’t have to renew it and then probably have to break it when I do graduate and pay the associated costs.

Song of the day 9/15

Kid Cudi - 50 Ways to Make a Record
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0h4ddUwAQ5M

You sit and think about,
How you can hit the scene.
Take one look inside,
Your mirror clear to see.
You need to find yourself,
As honest as can be...
There must be 50 ways to make a record.

Now Don't get wrapped into,
The hype and what they think.
This s*** ain't rocket science,
And the scene changes with beats.
And now you ask yourself,
How you want to be seen...
There must be 50 ways to make a record.

He's up inside the clubs,
They like to lean and rock. Oh,
Stands around and looks intrigued by what he saw.
Now he asks me,
How he can make hit songs to reach the top...
There must be 50 ways to make a record.
50 ways to make a record.

You got talent and,
Your soul cannot be bought.
He looked and smiled at me,
And told me "Thanks a lot."
See I could use your help...
And would you please explain about the 50 ways...

It's kind of easy,
If you have a open mind.
This game is more than,
Spending money and f***** dimes.
It's all within your words,
Some s*** that outlives time.
There must be 50 ways to make a record.
50 ways to make a record...

I CANNOT get this song out of my head lol. I'm seeing more to it than just making an album, but about life in general. As I am getting closer to graduating as each day passes, it seems like there are 50 paths I can take. The path I choose will shape my life, as an album shapes how the public sees an artist through their music. I hope Kid Cudi and I can get it together, soon.